one morning i woke up, sunrise by my window, everything seems so beautiful.

smile at mistakes

I caught (500) days of summer, like finally.

the way they shot it and narrate the story, its pretty cool. Some scenes that you sometimes thought might really happen in real life but did not, they managed to portray it well. Especially like the part when Thomas walks on the streets feeling all high n good about the morning, just to put it simply, feeling happy. and then the world starts singing along and cheering for him, fountains splashes, birds flying arnd, smilling at everyone sharing your joy.

sometimes when i feel good, such scenes do appear in my mind, like i hope i can dance along with that rhythm frm my itouch.

reality vs expectations.

that’s another scene i like. its really in life that you have certain expectations of what’s gona happen, but sometimes it turns out really frm the opposite frm what you’ve expected. mayb it’s cos we usually form to much of a perfect/ideal scene in our minds and take it as expectations. But as the saying goes “ perfection is boring“. reality is still reality.

Anyway yiling enlightened me by something she told me on friday.

make sure you do not regret not doing the things that you’ve wanted to do but did not.

somehow it kinda really think about it. i’ve always been like drowning myself in my own thoughts, just about anything in my life, worries, fantacies, dreams, questions, and comes all the “what if…”, “maybe if..”, “how good if..”. IF, is the word that i’ll probably need to dump after what yiling told me.

and then when i’ve decided that i don’t want any regrets in my life, suddenly some devil (by the name of mistakes) pops up on the left side of ur minds and tell you all the IFs.

its really contradicting. maybe i’m really afraid of making mistakes, but i wana learn how to make mistakes and gain from it. that’s the way we all grow, isn’t it? mistakes can be beautiful too. i’ve been really envious of people who are spontaneous and live by the “because i just feel like doing it” motto.

i should really start learning, with support, before i start regretting.

pacing

i woke up early this morning to collect my new passport. need to rush to work by 9.30am so i made the earlist appoinment available, at 8.15am. the procedure n wait was unexpectably fast. so i’m done by like 8.30am, too early for work. LOL.

i just thought maybe i’ll hang arnd the cafe near office to past time, but i already had breakfast at home. then i thought, okay i’ll just enjoy some good music, take a couple of train stops up and then go back to commonwealth again, that shall cost me some come alrdy.

mornings to work has always been a rush for me and i guess for everyone else too. running for buses, climbing escalators, squeezing into trains. hectic. but this morning i had a tiny bit of time allowance to travel to work, and it feels pretty good not having to rush like a mad horse.

enjoy the scenery outside the west side of sg, listen to some music, breath in, and think ” its a brand new day”, then smile.

this is a much better start of a day than a ” shite, its morning, i have 9 hrs more to go”

previously, i’ve posted a hallway print that speaks “some days you wake up feeling great, full of freedom and possibility. but you haven’t had one of those days in a long time. maybe ever”

now, maybe i should start practicing the “morning smile”, think of sth that will perk me up for the day and get me through. or maybe there is already a reason to perk me up everyday.

quick updates

1) I’ve been sick, and i am still sick. coughing very badly. 5days working week i’ve taken 3 days mc.

2) I wana watch 500 days of summer

3) I can’t help out at world mental health day street fest event tml cos i’m unwell. give me magic pills.

4) I like this year’s mid autumn festival.

5) I really need a good tan.

this is what i want in life now, how about you?

i woke up this morning

the sky was yellow on the left, grey on the right.

The next moment, i saw this through my window.

my eyes were half opened then, but i still went to grab my camera to snap a shot. interesting sight which lasts barely 2 mins.

sunlight plus upcoming thunderstorm with strong howling wind. this description fits my mood sometimes, a mixture of the extremes.